Random Subconscious Thought

It's what? It's where? Lights are dancing around me with my eyes straining to focus, even with them closed. Maybe it's because I'm so good at visualizing when I'm set to the task. I swear I could function completely normal in this state, but for whatever reason it never lasts all that long. But in this moment, I've achieved Nirvana...I've become one with reality that I can see it with my eyes closed. I wonder if blind people are really handicapped at all, for they must have a gift that many would wish for - to see without seeing. It's like knowing without knowledge.

It's innate.

It's the fourth dimension.

Ah, tis gone now! A minor travesty. I wonder what it's like to go through life unable to hear. That seems much more frightening than being blind.

Humility of Ego

Only when great men treasure upon,
In hopes of fame taller than clouds
For the sake of a personal prestige
And nothing more, they will fall,
And those who refuse, will descend
From the eyes of others, their humility.

It's Noble

For the past couple of days, I've been secretly hoping for something catastrophic to happen. Why you ask? I'm not entirely sure...maybe subconsciously I feel my life has gotten too boring. Or maybe I'm yearning for a challenge, something that will test every part of my character. I bet that when the time comes, I will be truly magnificent. I seem to always exceed expectations under pressure...it's when I'm at my best. I become unstoppable.

Mind over matter is a wonderful thing. It's the main reason why I can tell God, "Do your worst".

Simmering Confusion

For I have loved, and I have let go. Why do the good memories haunt me? My sleep has been disturbed for something deep inside me forbids it. But I think this is a good thing as my heart says... though my mind loathes it.

I'm not ready to let go, yet I'm swaying in this confusion. I know someone is laughing at me somewhere, but I'm fine with that. I'm better than him in every way. There's so much anxiety, and I really want to be the hero...but it is not my destiny at this time.

Patience indeed.

And sigh...